Thursday, September 3, 2009

wanna feel a warm breeze, sleep under a palm tree

This is a strange season for me. It's the first back-to-school season in 23 years (yikes!) that I haven't been going back to school. So all the blogs I read are about the new year and all my friends are buying books and new school supplies (oh, my love of new school supplies is boundless) and I'm...sunning myself in Aruba.

Let me clarify: I am not complaining. Only a complete fool would be complaining about this. In fact, I am at the very least relieved not to be going back. Most of the time, I'm ECSTATIC about it. But it is strange.

Actually, I keep having moments on this vacation where I feel like I need to pinch myself. HOW, I ask you, HOW did I get so lucky?? The hubs and I are struggling with at times feeling like spoiled brats and at times feeling like we deserve what we have--at least as much as anyone deserves what they have. I know that I've worked hard through my schooling and that having time to chill out is a good thing. I also know that having free lodging at two really nice places and the luxury of the time to use that gift is...unusual. I know that a LOT of people work a lot harder than I ever have, and in worse circumstances, and without the kind of support and love I have every day. So it's hard to reconcile that with, you know, sunning myself in Aruba. But I am valiantly attempting, in the immortal words of Mr. Tim Gunn, to Make It Work.

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